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时间一点一点推移，距离那个日子越来越近。
心里还是有顾虑的。一直都有。
期待着转机，期待一个能让自己抽离现状的机遇。
似乎有降临的预兆，又似乎仅仅是一闪而过的光点而已。她在心理盘算着这次胜出的几率有多大，
同时，也暗忖着下一次的转机。
她还是不甘心，确实无法甘心。
最难平复的，无非是心理落差。
当然，造成这种落差的原因自然是多方面的。以为自己渐渐习惯做一个看客的时候，却又很不情愿地发现其实并不是这样。
游离，毫无归属感可言。
任那莫名其妙的孤独感肆虐。心情这东西如果一时间现实改善不了，那也只能交给音乐了。
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Water and Wine (demo) - [call me Music]
Jun 2, 2009
1.
I am lost without You
But now I’m lost with You too
How can I know what to do
When what You tell me isn’t True
Learn to Discern
Is what You say
When in my Fury
I turn away
Chorus:
Show me Your Sign
Water and Wine
I need You to be
More than a Voice in me
Show me Your Face
Or at least some Proof of Your Grace
I need You to be
More than a Light in me
At least today…
2.
Hold me closer in my Pain
But You have caused it all the same
Why don’t You Practice what You Preach?
What Good has come of this, the way You Teach?
Learn to Discern
Is what You say
When in my Fury
I turn away
Chorus:
Show me Your Sign…
Bridge:
Leave me Alone
Let me be without my hopes
Without my fears
No, don’t leave me, let me
See the Truth
Taste my tears, my bitter tears
Caused by You…
Chorus:
Show me Your Sign…突然就很喜欢这种音乐 不是我一贯喜欢的风格
p.s. 6/1把自己彻底“修理”了。到现在还后怕中... -
-----------------------我以为这个故事的中心是女主，看到最后才发现原来是陆。
随着山顶上的一幕映入眼帘，他知道说什么都已迟了。他的爱也将永远被时光掩埋。其实这份感情说女主没看出来是假的，即使是旁人都早已察觉，何况是聪明敏感的女主，只是视而不见罢了。也不能说这就是彻彻底底的残忍，毕竟她已有了自己坚持，坚守了那么多年的梦想。如果不能回应那份爱就不要不负责任的接受，这种态度应该被认可。其实，无论她选择的是谁，她都是幸运的，因为那两个男人都是爱她的，都会给她幸福。
唯一感到可惜的是陆，自始至终都从没要求她做过什么，只是默默地守护着她，在她需要的时候帮助她，甚至不需要她开口。然而到最后他却连什么都没说出口就被判出局。可是爱情这东西本来就不公平，女主之前对宋不也是这样么？暗恋者的角色从来就不好扮演，苦情者。吃亏的永远都是爱得最多的那个。“你不过是仗着我喜欢你”，所以毫无主动权，心甘情愿地接受成为输家的结局。
宁愿没有看过番外。
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As the deer - [call me Music]
May 9, 2009
As the deer panteth for the water,
So my soul longeth after Thee.
You alone are my heart's desire,
And I long to worship Thee.
You alone are my strength, my shield.
To You alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my heart's desire,
And I long to worship Thee.
You're my friend and You are my brother,
Even though You are a king.
I love You more than any other,
So much more than anything.
I want You more than gold or silver,
Only You can satisfy,
You alone are the real joy-giver,
And the apple of my eye.
You alone are my strength,my shield,
To You alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my heart's desire,
And I long to worship Thee.
